This is certainly the truth. My other post talked about my future and how even through all the stress and things it will all be worth it. Oh lord do I hope! At the moment I am feeling slightly overwhelmed, but that is because I am moving in less than two weeks, trying to function with school and continue with a busier work day. Mind you I am more grateful that it is busier at work, because I feel like I am learning more and helping more with the students, where as over the summer it was sooo slow!!
Sometimes I sit and wonder If I have tackled on too much. I am looking in my living room right now with everything scattered across the floor and I am just tired!! My boyfriend and I only packed today the nick nacks and books(many many books). We also took everything off the walls with the exception of my curtains. I feel like there is sooo much more to do, but not off till the weekend. I have class on saturday only leaving me sunday to do the packing and the BOOM I move the friday next. Just so much to do and as always NEVER enough time.
I also think I strive way too much for perfection when It comes to anything I do. However, I am one to admit that I am scared of failure. I found myself getting upset over over a 90 and an 83 for grades today.More the 83 because ( and I have to go back and look at the notes) I do not remember learning about what I got points apparently taken off for. I had forgot to put something into a MARC Bibliographic format apparently and got points deducted. However, I do not remember reading about this particular field in ANY of my notes, so to be fair I am going to go back and check. But I fight for these things because I want to make sure I am learning everything properly and not missing something during my stressful days. My parents yell at me in a sense because they say I do so well in school I shouldn't be so hard on myself, but I get so nervous of letting everything get to me to the point I will let my grades slip and not do the best I can.
Again its days like this I wonder if I am honestly taking on too much. As the quote says, waiting is the hardest part, but unfortunately for me, I have been waiting a long time for a break and when I do finally graduate, I may just have to take an insane vacation. (time to win the lotto so I can actually go to London :)